confused....
i thought i don hav to blog again this week... i was bz preparing for my exam during the weekdays and when the exam was over, i was bz enjoying myself after that... nothing seems to be wrg in my thoughts n emotion... (except for the fact that i was not so happy wif how i did in the exam) but unfortunately, i underwent a big turnaround right now... i juz could not put my mind straight... once again things juz filled up n i juz need to let things out a little...
i'm rily confused rite now... is human not much different from animals in terms of relationship and mate?? is human as selfish as the animals when it comes to the survival and importance of themselves?? isnt love means everything when it comes to relationship or izzit juz a name to describe the special feeling n nothing more than that??
i alwiz thought love is such a powerful emotion which can drive ppl to do incredible and unexpected things... i alwiz thought if that emotion called love comes into a relationship it can drive the relationship towards a bright future... but things are juz not that simple...
when a couple is seperated for a very long time, the fire burning behind the relationship can sometimes begin to fade... n many dif thoughts and events will occur causing the fire to either burn again or being completely put off.. even love cannot keep it burning in this situation.. or is there no more love left?? i hear many stories about ppl breaking up in a long distance relationship... maybe the lost of fire is one of the reasons behind... i dunno...
is a relationship which lasts for a long time incomparable to someone new who juz begin to treat u nice for a few weeks?? is the memories n perhaps the emotion love unable to hold the relationship together from being taken away by a new sensation?? humans can actually be like animals in some way.. when a candidate arrives in the rite time he/she has higher probability to win the contest.. n wat is left of the old one r juz memories n mere memories....
i'm wondering... wat is the implication if someone thinks that some things are not meant to last forever n wats imp is the beautiful things that occur in the mean time??? i watched the trailer of "Cars" which is coming to cinema soon.. they mentioned this phrase " wat is important is not the destination, it is the journey that counts" though this might not be the exact words... hehe... izzit true?? izzit the process which matters the most n not the outcome?? i'm rily confused about this...
oh i think i'm crapping too much here... i don even know wat am i talking about... haih...
deep thought...
there's something which i have been thinking for quite a while... when ppl are bz and occupied with something, do they realise that they will tend to put all their attention to that thing and forget bout the rest.. it's like when exam is around the corner or a competition is coming up, there are practically nothing else in their mind but onli the exam or the competition... maybe this is how human works... this is how nature created us this way so that we can put full attention into it... with this perhaps, we can perform better in that particular thing...
but do we realise that while we r bz preparing and getting involve in the activity, we tend to leave other things aside?? and one thing that we alwiz leave aside and take it for granted is the relationships with the people around us... our family, our loved ones, our friends, or even the lady working in the library...
when we r so indulge into the thing we r doin, we tend to communicate less with the people around us... even when they r trying to talk to us also we will juz answer back in 1 or 2 sentences and hope that the conversation will end... wouldn't this leave a very bad impression on them?? wouldn't they be tired of our attitude one day and got fed up of us?? but usually those ppl care for us n understand our condition.. they will forgive us after a while... but wat if this thing doesn't happen onli once in a while?? wat if it happens so often that those ppl that we care about finally could not take it anymore?? wat will be the consequences that time??
truthfully, it is never a nice feeling to be neglected by others... when someone make u feel as though they don care about u anymore or u r not that important, it feels rily bad... it feels as though there are no more light out there... it feels so heavy right there in ur heart... its feels negative... but well its happens all the time.. n i might also be one of them who neglect others....
first post...
it is already 1.30 am n i'm thinking of starting a blog at this time?? well there's actually alot of things in my mind rite now... juz wanna get things out... n wats a better way than a blog?? starting this blog is really something new.... a whole new experience... a whole new virtual me...
exam is coming up next friday n i'm sooo not prepared... lots of lectures that need to be covered n so little time left... never like the feeling of rushing through the notes, memorising every words, but not learning anything... rily need to change my habit... start studying early n actually learn... wonder when onli will i do that... i have been making this resolution since dunno when but i'm still not making THE change...
ppl alwiz think that i can take things the easy way out... but i am not... i am actually working my butt off juz to achieve my target... n there's alot of pressure on myself... alot of stress to maintain it... can i actually do that all the way through?? maybe it is me myself who is creating this trouble... wat can i do?? maybe my fren is rite... get a day, drink till i'm drunk n no worries... maybe everything will be better... at least for that moment...
long term relationship is rily something very very hard to maintain... it requires a very high EQ juz to be able to get through it... no wonder alot of couples break up after staying away from each other for a certain period of time... but i'm hoping that i'm not gonna be among one of them... appreciate this relationship very much... about 3 months plus have passed... n there are already countless time when i feel rily down... lonelinesss can rily kill...
